When I’m alone

 When I’m Alone, There is something broken inside. I fall into this sadness so sweet in engulfs me . I look in the mirror and I don’t like what I see . When I’m falling asleep I feel like I’m missing something that doesn’t even exist. I’m not depressed  I’ve just been sad for a while.  I’ve gotten to a point where I don’t know who I am .

I am constantly feeling like verge of breaking down .

 If my mind was a ocean my thoughts would be a tsunami.

 I am a mess, I am coming apart at the seems and it scares me .

 I hate that feeling , the feeling when your sad but have the slightest clue why. Feeling so fucking empty even though nothing particular happened.  What’s worse is when people asking me what wrong and I cant even explain or no one asks at all.

The loneliness takes over me I isolate myself on purpose sadness becomes my best and only friend. I want everyone to leave me alone yet at, the same time I want someone to hug me and tell me that everything is going to be ok .

Being lonely doesn’t mean having nobody next to you it means feeling sad at night and realizing you cant talk to anyone without having the constant fear of disturbing them. Its being surrounded by a sea of people and still feeling like you don’t belong .

 I suppose I’m happy ;

Sometimes  like when I’m throwing my head back and coving my mouth as I shake with laughter at the joke that was made.  But days turn into nights and a carefree grin turns into unexplainable sadness , and i lay in bed thinking of all the things I wish I could say – all the things im afraid to admit . Its nights like theses when I realize I’m many things im happy, sad, outgoing, loud, rambunctious and shy but mostly I’m just


 it hurts I cant be what everyone wants or what anyone needs and it hurts that I cant be what I want or what I need.

Self Confidence Quotes

Confidence is a habit that can be developed by acting as if you already had the confidence you desire to have.

Brian Tracy

With confidence , you have won before you have started.

Marcus Garvey

Document the moments you feel most in love with yourself -what your wearing, who your around, what your doing. Recreate; Repeat.

Warsan Shire
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15 Ways to Raise Your SELF-ESTEEM

Good Self esteem means liking yourself and believing you deserve the finer things in life, just as much as anyone else.

Why is self- esteem important? Our self – esteem has a major affect on almost every part of our lives. Including our relationships, our degree of self confidence,  our career choice, our peace of mind,our happiness and eventually how much success we achieve.

Growing up we all had pleasant and unpleasant experiences that either made us think highly of ourselves or that made us think poorly of ourselves. But some of us have had so many unpleasant experiences that it made us think so badly of ourselves that we have unconsciously turned them into 3 major beliefs; which most of us believe to a greater or lesser extent.

  1. We are powerless victims who have little to say about our own lives
  2. We are inadequate and dont measure up to others.
  3. There is something innately “bad” or “wrong” with us.

   Regaining your self-esteem isn’t a mysterious process; it’s a matter of revising your opinion of yourself.

You can have anything you want if you are willing to give up the belief that you can’t have it.

Dr. Robert Anthony

15 ways to Raise your SELF-ESTEEM:

  1. Learn to say No” unless a task is try my responsibility , I’m not obligated to do it.
  2. Pay attention to feedback. Consider every mistake a learning experience.
  3. Make happiness a habit .My Moods. My responsibility.
  4. Find a job you enjoy. My Job brings me pleasure.
  5. Be 100% positive one day a week. I’m happier when I avoid negative thoughts.
  6. Refuse to compare yourself with anyone. Remind yourself that your unique its pointless to compare yourself with others.
  7. Avoid causing yourself unessacary pain.
  8. Become flexible.avoid pain by not hurting yourself.
  9. Accept compliments graciously
  10. Become a problem- solver. You have the power to eliminate the problems in your life.
  11. Rely mostly on yourself. Depend on yourself more then others.
  12. Ask yourself who live you’re really living. Live the life you want not wh as t others expect you to. Its important
  13. Dont let being different bother you
  14. Stop calling yourself names. You gain self respect by using positive self talk.
  15. Accept yourself unconditionally- now . Your perfectly worthwhile and acceptable just as you are.